Mimpi?lagi... #

F!F!..library nk tutup..start ngan bukak email..renew iklan kat gumtree...

aku dah type dalam ipod n konon2 nak terus post..tp tak jadi..let it be the next entry maybe..
 bermalasan2 lg...

last weekend g Inala...excited gler..walau rupa tempat tu hebat sikit je dari pasar borong selayang...erk!!
sbb Fadil nk belanja ketam...kitaorg g la ramai2...syiok dok carik dalam kedai ikan...kedai yg mmg berbau hanyiran..nyumss perfume free~telan dalam2 bau hanyir....

F gilers tak bawak camera etc...henset aku pon dh dikorek memory er...takler nk amek pic gak...
majoriti kedai vietnam atau thailand...satu-satu er tempat yg jual cili sos jenama meggi di brisbane ni...

mmg party ketam la kan...kenyangs~ tido nyenyak..esok bangun teringat keje tak siap...keje tak penah siap kan...itu perkara bukan luar biasa...

takpe lg..ada lg open house..mcm raya la kn~ kat umah yanti..segan nk amek pic gak..sbb takot kelihatan dungu sgt...rumah die mmg chun bler nmpk suncorp stadium dr verandah...syioks er....

makan-makan sambil dorang pasang cinta bertasbih  part 2..smpai minit2 terakhir..aku dah layan magazine vogue n cosmopolitan...
uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh~ lama gile tak bace magazine..vodoh rasa er sbb aku pon suka spending kat magazine..tp tula terapi bulanan ...walau hakikat er aku tak abes bace pon...

masuk cerita sebenarnya~
kitaorg pinjam dari yanti dvd ....tp aku pelik sbb sepatut er cita Indonesian tapi asik ulang-ulang kata melayu..lagu pon dondang sayang etc~
herm..tak puas ati aku wiki kan aje..n shooting /movie tu take place kat belitung...pulau yang akan dekat ngn semenanjung Malaysia...

Tapi sumpah cite ni sangat menarik...kalau korang tak suka cite slow...sukati ar~
aku suka cite ni sbb unik....sangat lain dari yang lain..tak kesah sape yg berlakon dalam cite ni...
mungkin korang akan jumpa muka peterporn...sambil layan telor chocholat ni..nomnomnom!

pagi ahad konon nk g gold coast mlawat orang baru bersalin..n terkejut hampeh sampai city rupe er tutup kedai2 disini...arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ langsung x jadi jalan..
kedai yang bukak kedai souvenir je..pathetic gile okey!

dok umah lyan 4movie sampai pengsannn...

why owh why

3 things I did after try (yes!TRY) to wake up after few of my alarm clock snoozing like several times.don't even try to take a shower or even start my study but i figure out that;

crème fraîche = sour cream and 

google can't googling ; "?"

why today is monday...y?

and now...I slurp my last night orange juice from my mug..it still feel like yesterday....but it not...

the fact I hv class this evening...

and don't even read any single thing I should read....

annoying.

if I didn't start it now...i'll b regretting it soon....

but 

Menjadi sombong.

 kita terlalu ANGKUH utk mengaku kesombongan.
Kita takut dengan bayang-bayang sendiri.Berjalan di bumi Tuhan dengan kegentaran dihati.BUkan takut Pada Yang SAtu.Takut pada mereka yang tak pasti.hampeh!


banyak lagi keje kena buat.
tak jadi nk exchange duit.tgk rate dah nek.eh,ak ingat g esok bler turun balik ke?
aDOiii~


kena carik adiah kaklong.DIa dah 27.
(Telan ayer liur sbb bulan depan aku lak bakal kertu.)
problem nak wrapping adiah.ZZzzzzzZzzzz

last wrapping sgt buruk!hODoH mcm SeLuLiT yang keji...

Lupe apa motif type dah td..skang rasa  lapar.

Nah ha...skandal baru cik jeda...
yups...pinggan kuew teow tu mmg kecik!tu bukan pinggan tp piring bsar sket....lokasi paroi LoL

Sentap gitu

Few daya ago aku Mcm nk tgk filem Faster. Tapi xde org lak nk teman.
Tgh pikir2 sape nk dijadikan mangsa.ttiba ada lak sorng kwn ni Ym- ing aku ajak tgk.
Rofl,aku Mmg suko la gk ada org ofer.
Pastu dia tanye aku balik.
"Takde ke kwn aku lain yang nk join ? "
Huh?dalam ati, Klau ada org len xda la aku nk g ngn die..
"Hahaa,xde la bai...nnti aku tnye ayed ke if Die nk Join"

"bukan ape, aku rasa tak molek kite keluar berdua..."
krek...krekk... (bunyi cengkerik)
dah tu kenapa ko ajak?confius...
Jangan celarukan aku dengan kehendak+kebingungan prinsip kamu dengan diriku.
Ape aku mrepek...hahaha,perot saket smlm byk sgt push up... Tp x kempis2. Ayooyoooo

sementara tunggu jeda di aQUAria meriang ria..aku mengarut diluar-luaran.
tapi ini seksi...LIKE!asli...tak perlu implan~

Melawat dan makan

few days back,g melawat mak(referring maklong) kat HUKM sbb die baru lepas kena surgery.
Kak Ngah pon dtg skali which mean they back reunite again at that day.
Sangat pening jlan nk g HUKM if dtg dari sg besi er highway.
chat-chating n balik.Sebab xnak berpusing-pusing mcm datang tadi,decide ikot jlan yg len.Lalu depan kompleks renang n dewan apentah.ttiba ibu suh ingat time kecik2 ingat tak kitaorg tgk Malik Nor bina badan.
OWh,kecik2 dulu mmg aku ingat ada sekali dua pergi tgk show sukan2 ni.Tapi aku hanya end up tidur sebelum show start lg.hahaha~
 Last-last mkan kat Kg baru.Chinese Muslim restaurant depan UNIKL. Medina kot nama er.
entah la..sudah lupe~memory lost kan after 24h

Jangan terpedaya!!1901 er card ni ler guna kat menara TM je.hampeh~

benefit?tak ingat la,maybe mcm bubble tea er card tu kot.beli 10 dpat 1.

tao fu (Xtau la eja dr dlu) sizzling.around rm8

Ada telur layer bwah tao fu tu.Fill with sayur dan cendawan jua.

siakap tomyam

butter prawn

bila la aku sendiri nak try smpai jadi nie?hurm~

n last menu Syiah er nasi paprik.ayer kendondong +mocha blended+choclate blended+barley suam+2 cup of chinese tea.Smua cost around RM60 kot.Hahaha.tp lauk sangat banyak.n sebab aku tak berjaya abeskan maybe aku n chinese food agak tak ngam.

selalu aje x abes each time order chinese food.Maybe sbb xbrape pedas kot.
service agak lambat.nak kate ramai orang tak gak.stiap kali dorang hidang makanan,kaklong mesti kuar ayat.
"kenapa orang tu dapat dulu dari kita.kan kita smpai dulu"
aku malas nak layan sbb aku xde la lapar pon
"maybe sbb kita order lambat kot tadi."
Padahal aku tak perasan pape pon.

balik rumah.terbongkang tidur.zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

sinikal er hidup + review khurafat

1) pagi td ibu ajak teman g subang.
"ada program ape?"
"nak agihkan barang utk org miskin "
"subang?"sinikal er orang selalu anggap subang tmpat hip orang kaya-raya.
Plus selalu er program yg mak ak join selalu kat tempat cerok-cerok..ttiba arini kat bandar lak.

sebab ape muka syiah terponga?

die kagum n ttiba suh aku wat sbb die kate sedap.ape hingat  ler tau resepi dengan sekali gigit.zessss~

aunty2 yg ghajin~erks,ak knal 2/3 org je

2) Dua hari lepas makan ayam penyet ria kat depan wangsa walk.Eh,aku tak tau mane satu depan belakang mall tu.Owhhhh,tidak sma feeling dengan wong solo.slalu ak mkan wong solo rasa tak cukup je.Pastu balik smua mengantuk rasa nk pengsan...apesal kah aku,ketagih ayam penyet wong solo ini...

3) Hari yg sma di waktu malam, layan cite khurafat.
Orang kate best gile.Tapi,bukan la sbb utama aku nk tgk.Review kat paper pon ak mlas nk bace.kuh3~pas tgk br tau cite ni agak mlebey gak promo er.
Maybe sbb soundtrack filem ni shamsul ni yg rapping n nyanyi sendiri...(buley ke jadi penarik?entah la...)
Aku suka sebab ada subtitle.time tgk kak limah xde subtitle.bila satu wyg gelak2...agak blur bila xdpt dengar dialog selanjut er.
Plotting cite menarik.Sia-sia tengok if korang dah tau ending

cliché filem yusof haslam mmg ada.Entah la,kalau korang bukan pengemar drama2 mereka diTivi.ada time yg rasa mcm kebiasaan..walau x byk sgt mcm ~ camera angle,tempat shooting dan lagi,dialog gaduh-gaduh ni mcam biasa je  dengar. Biasa?perghh,kantoi mcm ak lak yg selalu tgk.TIpu la klau dulu tak tengok sembilu.
Kalau bukan aku,makcik aku,takpon nenek aku..Time mkan mlm tu,terlayan la jugak.
Liyana Jasmay er make up kekadang ganggu kosentrasi.xcheck la sponsor make up maybeline atau bukan.
sbb die kan cute..contoh,time rushing g hospital sempat pulak bubuh eyeshadow yg matching ngan tudung.PELIK bukan?benda kecil2 sebegini ganggu mood aku.
PLUS lg suka watak die dalam histeria atau niyang rapik d movie.

Puas hati sbb hantu banyak.Tu la sbb utama nk tengok cite hantu kan?
tak perlu 3D sbb muka hantu penuh satu skrin.Tkujat-kujat la memula.scene terkejut hantu datang dari belakang wat sekali dua cukup kot.if lebey mcm ketandusan idea.

sinikal er,ramai gak yg gelak time hantu asik kuar.mereka gembira mungkin sebab rasa berbaloi tgk hantu d wayang...

story psal khurafat ak teringin makan roti cheese khulafa.nyummy,jauh er nk g sek 7~sob3...
p/s>intro:padan muka aku kena type blk..tadi gatal tulis kat notepad..ttiba time nk CTRL+A   tersilap tekan n trus ilang smua

01012011

starting new year dgn ketaKbestan.
Bgun lmbat.TIdo flat giler.kul9 baru bangun...
mmg dah rasa nak mencarut kat diri sndiri.
Msg my fren yg suppose gerak sekali.Dorang baru nak mandi.LEga sat.packing hadiah utk BBQ kat ulu yam sat lg.
Tunggu dorang balas...Senyap.confius kenapa lma sangat.Last2 call gtau dah nak gerak.
time call n nak kuar parking...Demmmmm~ada canopy baru nak nek kat jalan dekat rumah.kena guna opposite direction.
On the way nak fetch fren.Perasan mcm ada perayaan something kat batu caves..APelak terjadi~nampak mcm rmai org.
Smpai batu caves.HE actually dah gerak.n make me lost my temper..end up shouting and throw my tantrum at him.Like badly crazy women who actually having emotional problem due to the nearest time of menstruation process.Bad timing!SOrRy mate~
Conclude the drama as miscommunication among each other.
Make up bad relation with my friend who lately having "perang dingin"
Not really an enjoyable moment of the day.Didn't bring my jeans and have to wait for my mum which still in KLIA at time I'm on my way home.
coverage problem~smpai kat empangan baru masuk msg ibu.saying kunci rumah tercicir kat gate.
arghhhhh,cdit xde.mekaseh la kak sam kasi pinjam phone....tensi!
x suka lepak lama2 kat  tempat aku campak "bubuh" kat situ...sob3~ rindu kekura ku....
klau aku still bela..mesti dah besar..hurmmm~

so tunggu kat petronas mcD....tunggu n tunggu...ngantok giler nie...last2 decide g drive thru.
owhhhh lupe,I end up just lepaking dlam keta sebelum tu.malu je nk g masuk mcD ngn sluar biru.
dah beli baru niat nak g lepak kat taman layang2....ibu call kate dah smpai umah.CISSSSSS!
penat guwe beli ini orea berries...tapi sangat sedap~ lupe nak snapping..tp mmg sedap.

" nak mcflury berries..."

"yang orea berries yerr..."

"nak yang berries la...."

bila dapat2 mmg ada oreo campur berries..hahaha,mana ar tau.ad 2 picture kat drive thru er menu...
aku yg mamai2 ni memg ingat satu mcflurry oreo and satu lg berries jer...
TETAPI,ya ampun,sungguh nikmat!

wahahaha~

rasa menu drive thru sgt kedekut nak letak picture.
pastu dari smlm ak g mcD waiter mcm xpham ak ckap ape.

Aku rasa mcm aku order dgn bace balik menu by referring gambo yang aku bkenan.
Mcam tadi r.die tulis kat menu.Prosperity mcFizz.
tp yang amek order mcm confius ngn order aku.
"nak proseperity mcFIzz medium yer..."
"nak berger shaja atau dengan air?"
"HUH??? nak yang air....mean~ yang rm3.55"
"owhhhh~oren mcFizz...."
okey nyah,dengan nada menyampah nak cakap ngn aku.saket hati la tue....lantak la,asal ak kenyang~

Lol..mane ak tau itu oren..xtulis...kalau mangga pon ak xtau kan....hahaha,padahal baru mlm td makan.
saje nak bg alasan~
mmg weng nak order drive thru..saket hati kdg2...
dah magrib xbuleh tido..takot makin weng.so end up merapu2....
pas magrib ak nk tido smpai esok..hahaha~
I'M MANIAC FOR TODAY.

It just hurt(entri tlebey emo)

"In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate".


I would LOVe to keep everything that hurting me to my past.
Forgive and forgetting what might make me cry.
 literally I'm not good on doing those kind of thing.
Yeah,I'm the person who able to hold grudge for a long time.
That what my mom told me when we have a fight.
Maybe it just an excuse for her bcause forgetting thing she promised to me before.
But this isn't about my mom....
This is more to some fragile relation we build and bounding that we hope will last forever...
I'm not good telling people story.Plotting semua larik bersepahan.
Yeah,that one of my weakness.Ada ke orang kat dunia ni yang xda kelemahan?

Everyone does..But some people keep telling themselves.They can't overcome the fear.

I did sometime too...I've done a lot of mistake on my past. Terlalu banyak dan tak terhitung.

There are some mistake I wish I never did.Dan bila ingat,I can't barely hold the tears.

Tapi ada orang yg terlalu banyak mengira kelemahan diri sendiri...dan terlupa bersyukur/berterima kasih atas rahmat yg Tuhan beri..Tak nampak kasih sayang dan keikhlasan orang sekeliling.Perlu ke nak compare dgn orang lain atas nasib diri?
Klau orang lebih dari kita,kita rasa rendah diri.Klau ada orang lebih lemah/kurang bernasib baik baru kita nak mula bersyukur?


I feel like giving up on this people sometime...
Tapi,Tuhan pun tak pernah putus asa atas kat manusia.Sedangkan hari-hari kita buat dosa yang berganda.
BUT again,I'm only human.. Cuba bagi orang lain harapan walau diri sendiri terkapai-kapai.
I failed to stand strong...Ada sampai tahap yg ak sangat lemah nak berdiri balik...
Rasa ikhlas yang hilang.Rasa menyesal yang datang menganti.Tak mudah nak jadi kawan yang baik.Sedangkan diri sendiri xcukup teguh pendirian.
I've no one to turn to when I'm in deeply sorrow..
Keras hati kdg2 bila time emosi.will asking people for an advice but usually already knew what must hv done.
Bak kata enun,
"kau ni kena enter anger management class untuk belajar bersabar."
Probably I should~
dan akey said:"let the time pass by.Tak payah pikir sangat.keep the distance.Jangan complicated kan masalah. try je la kot baik biase2.no need to b soo close with someone who don't really appreciate you.
for old time sake.Relation made up from 2 side er understanding"
I don't really make a lot of friend.Probably I'm not really a good person dat people like to call friend.
But I still glad to have some of them who could guide me when I'm in the dark.
 I
Untuk mereka yg x rasa aku harus dihargai.Maybe ak harus berterima kaseh atas ke'baek'kan yg korang beri..
Mungkin ak mmg kecik hati kdg2 dgn korang.sbb hati ak x sebesar hati korang yg suci lg murni.
Aku x kan faham ape yg ada dlm otak korang.klau korang x bgtau.
I can't read mind.I'm not even a sweet talker darling~I'm just me who try to make my shallow lil heart fulfill with happiness after tears that I pour during my lonely time. 
aku  xpndai bg ayat2 manis thap diabetes to make u feel good bout urself.
ak xpndai nk puji/angkat2 org ni..sbb ak sndri susah nk rs bangga dgn diri sndri.Proven,ak rarely nk tgk chermin if nk kuar umah dlm keadaan sgera.atau g ladies time rushing2 kat mall.sbb sdar mmg comot.bila tgk cermin akan rs xpuas   ati n hv lot of dissapointment..
so I choose to avoid eye to eye ngn diri ak dlm cermin tlalu kerap..but when I did.akan amek ms agak lma.n ak buleh tukar smpai 4 baju sbb xconfident dgn bdan sndiri~
aku pon manusia lemah mcm org len.Tapi ak xhrap org dpt naseb yg sma dgn aku..lg2 when U call her ur bestfriend,bila org tu try to make u happy but It seem easy for U to make assumption like she nvr understand u.
YEah,I knew u well enough.Well enough untuk tak terus menipu n keep u in the dark.I knew ur pain and sorrow but I just need u to b strong.

"we' saw how ur other 'precious' friends  treat u.the hypocrisy that we observe sometime make we wanna throw out.
but I just being myself and make u realize life won't be dat sweet like ur  fantasy.but I notice how YOU rather be in a dream than being realistic.
so I let you being at place where YOu like to be...LEt the good memories go.sbb menghargai diri aku mungkin susah utk kamo.mungkin sgt tipis utk kau lihat.

terus bermimpi

few days ago mimpi kena cabut gigi..
waaa~adakah sbb mlas gosok gg sblum tido..
pukul 11pm ni pon rs nk korek peti ice n mkan some desert..
rasa pening je isu carik rumah kat brisbane ni...
aku x pham sgt ecah er cdangan at first.kenapa la budak ni x folow study skali...
and too bad the agent not really helping a lot.
Herm.if I did it much earlier.I probably do it all on my own.
Reality is~ xsampai 2 bulan ak kena start belaja balik...
Shity giler feeling...rs yg sgt xbest when I start thinking deeply about this.
if  nk sPeakinG ENglisH, tahap confident maseh half cook lg..
ggggggggggggggggggggr~try wat boDoh..tapi sebenar er rasa cam scary giler.
uSha2 pic kat website rumah sewa ni...RAsA nak menangis pon ada
Keep telling myself.This is REAL!ni bukan g booking flit-hotel-after sminggu balik mcm dlu.
Suka atau tak.I have to stay there.struggle and start exploring new life.
Masa degree ibu suh g ak nk tunggu master.dah master ni,rasa mcm makin lemau..

aku,jeda n amy makan kat "?" mall ampang sabtu lepas.ada karoke rm1/slagu.tapi RM10-11 lagu
tapi sound system haprak..mall ni bagai hidup segan mati tak mauuu~
tapi kan....sizzling die sedap selepas sizzling metro kajang.....and ak tak rasa sizzling klcc tu sedap mcm ramai org kate..slalu order kat klcc msti x abes.tapi yg ni sgt nyummmy,amy yg dh makan pon ler abes kan sizzling ni...

Keep thinking bout someone lately ** sound stupid to hv this feelingt while I knew I can't be here 
and stay by his side....
Is it cruel if I let myself thinking there still a hope when I'm not able to see even a shadow of him coming on my way....I'm falling apart.I try to stop listening to my heart.BUt it kind of hurt.Sorry,too fragile to hide it~

Goo Goo Dolls-Fiction (Before It's Too Late)

I wander through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
and I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

hold on before it's too late

We'll run till we leave this behind

Don't fall just be who you are

It's all that we need in our lives

and the risk that might break you

Is the one that would save

A life you don't live is still lost

So stand on the edge with me

Hold back your fear and see

Nothing is real 'til it's gone

So live like you mean it

Love 'til you feel it

It's all that we need in our lives

So stand on the edge with me

Hold back your fear and see

Nothing is real 'til it's gone

something to remember

Usai dah convocation y ke2 smlm...
Rancangan Tuhan slalu er unexpected....I'm the one who don't bother and decided not to go for my convocation day but at the end my sister convocation day will be postpone due to d bad weather at her place...
Bradford winter teruk...scary er...baru awal november...it coming early then last time I were day.GLobAL warMing r such horrible thing you could imagine....and what bout the rest you couldn't?
Instead,my mom already there just to attend the ceremony by herself and ziqah...
but end up with disappointment....
Patut la ibu marah aku gile2 sbb xnk g...
Well,kesedaran last minute aku mmg aplikasi er kat smua keadaan....
Report Lab/technical paper/FYP/study for exam,thesis and even for this event I settle it in 2 days bfore taking the robe....owh3,adakala last minute yg mmg dirancang...
mlas nk dtg awal2 utk konvo...buying new shoes  for this day..new hairstyle(for those y tak pkai hijab)..semua pon rasa nk new...tough at first ko x pikir nk beli....nnti bile dh pikir2...msti mcm nk beli thing gak...but syukur lah sbb I did these thing last minute...JUST piCK thINgs In the wArdrobe .
MAke UP pon mascara n eyeshadow jeda er..uhuks...

Aku benci keserabutan selepas konvo..smasa nk nek pentas...sblum nek pentas..masa turun pentas..duduk dlam line yg sempit...Benci...

It really good to have someone you love especially your parents and family there...But yet,still do wanna be with ur good friends too...aku benci hakikat time konvo rasa nk amek pic ngn  kawan2..last2 kwn2 ntah bersepah hilang mane...sbb masing2 xde planning...n last2 g menepek kat ayam penyet....borak2 psal strip club...adoyaiii~lwaks giler....
But,yeah...maybe convocation not all about good picture you taking by wearing those fatty robe.But moment you appreciate every little heart that warmly and kindly make you achieve the scroll.
So this convocation not about me at all.It for you dear Family and friends who there or not....
I'm lucky for having you in my life.....I'm happy cause I still have you until now...
Some will go,Some will stay,Some remain the same,and there are some who turn to be completely strangers with each others(okey fine,effect dr tgk GLee ni ayat pon jd geli2..)..For whoever u'll become...This is for you~

oppss,but hadiah n bunga still untuk aku....hahaha ^_^

Teringin Telepon

" SEsuaTu yg kite Nak/mau/teringin slalu er...mesti benda yang susah atau mustahil untuk kite capai...."

contoh>>> yg x kurang Mampu kepinging nk jadi KAya Raya sebab xrasa bhagia selagi duet x melimpah ruah....dah dapat duet..trus lupe diri...

ok fineeeee~dari kate org..bek tuding jari busuk ni kt diri sndiri..

like me;myself...time phone aku elok..xnk jaga...n teringin nk LG lolipop

       pic dr encik google

dah rosak jahanam baru terhegeh2 nk kcewa..gula2 lolipop pn xde.....nyetsss

   pay phone pon jahanam..citzz!

PERSOALAN ER????

kalau pon kite dapat SESUATU tu~ 

possibility untuk kite jaga se'PErfecT' mungkin..

MAMPU KE??  

cth Islamiah sket>>>kite diberi iman dari awal lahir...tapi;susah kan nk jaga~.bnda yg paling valuable..tapi..nampak ke kite??ada ke hari2 kite syukur..trima kaseh kat Maha Pemberi atas nikmat satu ni...

Rupa apekah agaknya Iman tu bile kite kembali kan pada-Nya di akhirat kelak...aduhai~syahdu...

ni bukan ak cite psal  nurul Iman ank pak Rahman yg amek medic kat seberang erks..(+minah tu mmg chun malatop/bbudi bahasa/ayu sopan sgala bgai....jgn brani compare ngn aku)

tipical sgt kan ape yg aku nk ckap..tp,tu la yg aku rasa akhir2 ni...
ak dh penat..tp ade je bnda yg buat hati ak ni tsentap tgh2 mlm mgambang ni...

Phrase ni slalu sgt kite dgr...but the probs is;

 we still not gonna realize it till the day we can't reach it anymore...

" you don't know what you've got. Till it's GONE...."

ak nk sgt mghargai bnda yang dh ada depan mata..tapi~ak cuba pon xbuleh gak....

lagi aku cuba..lagi aku rasa;i mit end up hurting someone i do care...someone i always call as friend....

so,setapak dua tapak tiga tapak..ak try ignore him...tp btul ke cara aku?

cuba klau ak kat tmpat die??

mesti sedeh kan.....mesti ak tgh bguling2 syahdu bagai ,sbb org yg aku suka wat perangai sememeh mcm yg aku wat skang..

n klau aku accept org yg ak dh try suke...tp  ak sdar hakikat er....

wat the heck gonna happen next??

kejam gLe..hari ni mmg hari kejam aku~benci!!!!

extra chessy;
- penat gler nk susun blk brang dlm bilik ni...ttiba mroyan lak...ampun~
                 -Sorry sis,i'm not supposed to yell at u..but i did~i regret it truly! i wish i cud change a monster inside of me...i nvr meant wat i said..
my mind and my act react  in  OppoSite away...

Donita-Menanti Sebuah Jawaban (Super HD Video Clip)

tetiba terjumpa lagu ni kat utube...best gak version donita ni..tp yg xler blah..ending vC nie...adeh2....dah syok2 layan..ttiba ler spoil ngan ending yg x msuk akal...lol~ ak kusut masai dah x siap lg keje ni..ym pon xler bukak dr td...bengang jer~erm sabar2...n tabah...

Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." (Al-Baqarah, Ayat ke-216)

lama dah ak x terbaca ayat ni....smoga ak menyukai perkara yang baik bagi-Mu dan membenci perkara yg tidak Kau sukai.... sometime You gave me difficulty yet let me ease in some other way~i'm the one who see darkness when u show me the light....forgive me~

i go chord guitar...

nak blaja lagu ni...bilakah..ini pon dh curik time study...keji2...

I Go
G - D/F# - C/add9 - G
So long, fare thee well
Em - G - Am - D
The dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell
G - D/F# - C/add9 - G
So turn down this bed of stone
Em - Am - C - D - G - Am - Am/B
Quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong
C - G - Am - Am
The long December rain is falling now
C - G - Em - Em
Running down on streets to nowhere
C - G - Am - Am
Music is my life – you’re my sweetest nightingale
Bm7flat5 - E7 - Am - Am/B - C
But I can’t hear it here no more
G - D/F# - C/add9 - C/add9
And I go
G - D/F# - C/add9 - C/add9
I go
Hush now, don’t shake or break
Words have fallen silent like soldiers to the grave
No matter what they do or say
Lay me on the sleepy meadow by the tracks upon your face

Menghukum

alololo....hr ni full of tense...ak ingt nk study +work at konkris td...tp ada la palesit mane myemak kat umah ak..
myirap thap dewa-dewi bintang lima td...
watever la bdk2...ak rasa nk tendang je pungung korang smua ni...dowl..ko ler wat pesta masak2 tgh2 hr time org tgh busy ni...mmg la ak saket hati...ngn ntah sape2 tGoLek2 nk blanja spender biru lace kat smua org..iyuuuu geli aku~bradab la sket dtg umah org...bahalul bin sAmBdoL pon lg sopan dr minah2 bajet chun td....

itu part pertama...
part kedua~slmat la dlm kebengongan ak tu..ak roger rico n mok mkan...n time nk blk..huhuu...ak tau nama the 'superman'....kewl~ak mmg mata telanjang sket uollls.....wat to do...cuci2 mata....bukan sentuh pon...

next one...ak pikir2 blk..nk tak nk g perhentian..since amy mcm x jd nk g medan/bali...ak pon decide folow bdk2 ni g perhentian...smpat je join...tp,ttiba amy msg ajak g bali lak...aduh~dugaan tol....cane nk setle kn..duet nk g bukan duet aku..how to tell mama...i wanna go to both place in the same month...will she freakin out after i told her...arghhh....n dsebab kn ak mlas nk blk konkris ngdap setan haram tu...ak decide blk selyang....adakah sbb tpedaya ngn mrX ptg td...mhasut ak pulang ke slayang sbb die dh melpak kat rwang...demmm~knape ak nk tpedaya...ak mmg rindu ibu..bwekkk~boleh blah itew mrX...
cukup2 la banana grow twice yep...cis,sLepas ak dgn bsemangat dgr lagu tomok yg baru 2x....(mcm inspired wat....xkesah la korang nk kutuk aku) ttiba pure2 tnye psal report...haktuih!! knape la ak g blas pon ak tak tau...mayb ak xnk tunjuk sgt kcewa dihati ini....
next day er die call lak~pelik!!!knape kah kamoo mr X...last time die call sbb die er muke msuk paper...menang game ape ntah...ni 2nd time die call...so,pelik gle la~so,ak cuma msuk kn formulati dlm pbuaLan...kena kewl n chill je zihah...bpure2 x salah...at least ak blaja jd tabah....

The song dat catch my heart...ugagaga

funny lol; a few month ago i started using this intro as my sms ringtone...
then,i just realize the lyrics almost explain my feelings rit now...
after wat happen to me...it just suit the situation...ohhmmmmgggg....
wish i cud be ur pelangi...


most of the time..i just let my phone stay in silent mode...mlas nk tukar...
for the rest;enjoy je la

Joanna&Co

Verse 1:
Ku selalu dihati,
Membuai rayumu,
Hiasi dunia sepimu.
Seukir senyuman dariku,
Menggegarkan mayamu,
Kau segalanya bagiku.

Pre-Chorus:
Takkan setia,
Takkan kembali,
Bawa dirimu dan tinggalkanku.

Chorus:
Buka matamu,
Lihatlah diriku,
Aku pelangi,
yang dinanti.

Verse 2:
Ku sinar cahayamu,
Di saat indahmu,
Juga waktu resahmu.
Ku lukisan imagimu,
Kini kau membisu,
Setelah ku tiada.

Ulang Pre-Chorus & Chorus

Bridge:
Berharap bayangku pulang,
Nikmati tiadaku.

1st try>>mata ikan ku

hAve a LoOk...and please do comment...

i'm using kodak 400(biasa dpt kat kdai)

my new addiction FISH EYE #2

stelah btahun2 myimpan hasrat ni..i just decide to buy one of lomo camera..
kegilaan terbaru nazihah...ermm moh lihat brape lama diri ini bler btahan...
dr sgala ilmu hasil m'usha blog n some forum..
dpt la hasil sperti dibwh ini..
From my personal exp...to buy lomo cam, there are some consideration u mit think bfore u decide to buy those ur fav one...
Lagi2 mcm ak yg totally dont hv steady income...kena la pikir2 kn akibat yg bkal dptempuh..
mcm nk beli filem..nk cuci filem..
masa nk beli camera ni pon ingt snang..rupa er certain blogger mcm lomokids prefer korang order dlu...if brg yg korang nak, xde dlam ready stock...
pastu ak try kat wondermilk..kcewa gk sbb time call phone sperti tertera kat web ;dorang kate available ..bile ak roger dr shah alam ke uptown damansara smata nk g beli xde lak..
SLEPAS satu mlm dikecewa kan...
esk  hari er ak trus keje mengoogle n dpt info; boutique mook kat garden n pavillion ada jual gak...
Dlm ksibukan ngn jadual pack bangat...akhir er dpt gak beli...suKa gLes...hahaha~dh la time nk beli pon ada gk dugaan er..amoi kat situ kate xde kaler itam...n nazihah yg sengal ni bwk duet tepat2..rm250...
sbb dh mlas nk mcari lg...ak wat pGorbanan duet kcemasan yng ada sperti;
 pound sterling,dirham n Singapore dollar ke money changer...n dpt la lg RM50+..dlm hati;(.cukup la if ak nk beli kaler puteh..)
n bile time nk beli tu..cit,rupe2 er ada kaler itam...disbalik lomo fisheye no1..haha.....jimat ak...
for those who hv no idea wat i'm saying...ak beli fish eye no2....kaler hitam jual kat kdai mook mid valley = rm250
if ak nk beli pink/ puteh = rm285 mayb sbb limited addition kot...xpe la~rm38 tu bek ak beli ice cream ben&jerry..hahaha..
skang ni dh g antar kdai cuci...kdai kat umh ak BBs photo shop bler cuci smpai lpas raye cina 22/2
ak pon try la g ttdi lak..pon xler dpt cpat..sminggu gak tunggu...last skali g shah alam sbb casper(my fren at uitm) kate sek 8 ada express er siap 30 min..sbb kmalasan bgun pg...apek tu dah tutup kdai gak...

sedeh2....ada la lbey 5 kdai ak g turun n tnye..blum lg masuk kdai yg ak lalu n confirm x bukak...pdan la muka ini...last2 jumpa gak kdai sblah Restoran Hakim sek7 ,jln Kristal..bler siap esk..yahuuu~esk ak x sbar nk tgk hasil..skali mcm smpah..adehhh~