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Sunday, August 28, 2011

raya song

okeh,as usual I haven't finish my proposal.wade???
30% for my final result and still playing around....so typical of me.
Just having my breakfast (opssss,it's still ramadhan and you know what I mean rit?)
sure...
It just my coffee and my bread.and probably cereal next.
(I need big breakfast...everyFday)

browsing facebook...
seem everyone on their way back to kampung.
Watching youtube,,the latest video from matlutfi..about merdeka something.I'm not able to finish it up..
Too long..(need to finish my assignment remember?)
so yup...why not another video...
and this super long video absolutely burst my tears out.
my mom call yesterday...during the time they suppose to break fasting...
It was 9pm at here..
'ada call ke tadi?'
'No,I didn't'
'owhh,tp ada miscall ni..'
'Takde lah....tengah wat ape tu?'
'baru buka...tp yang lain tak balik dr bazar jln kuching'
and go on..and on..
the point is...I'm not sure if she just saying about me calling her.and absolutely I didn't.

salah tekan?termissed call? Impossible I tell ya~
I hardly text anyone anyway~

so I was watching it..and make me cry ...
it feel so tahi..when think back how I never skyping with them.
I never try to appreciate maybe..
she want to kirim my baju kurung to my neighbour who come to visit her son here.
But I refuse since I don't really in mood to mix around for hari raya like a normal person do.
I was selfish thinking about my assignment which I know I could finish it up early but I don't.
I just being lazy as usual and only finish it up on the last minute.and regret it when it just too late for it.

well basically yeah.I regret for not letting her come here for hari raye.
she have a week off for raya holiday.
I just don't want her to feel bored celebrating raya which I have no attention to celebrate it though.

I feel free for not thinking about how boring my raya will be this year.
(like every years I do...)
apart of it.I do want to be with my family..we don't have a big family though.
Past few years.It only us who will waiting for people come for takbir during malam raya.
I wish my sister will soon get married and give some niece or something..
but maybe at that time she'll be at her husband house and we still be alone...
(be careful what you wish for)
Our raye usually empty and dull not as we were kid.
I missed my nenek old house with perigi and serambi to play with..
and some buaian and loteng where place I pampered myself when my sister and cousin pulau me from their  childhood play.

pinjam dari...(google)

So yaaaah,the first raya song I listen today...
is from him too...I do think he kinda of cool doing simple thing yet really mean a lot for a person like me..


I do hate raya songs when everywhere the same raya song will be repeating like million time on the radio,mall,car..everywhere!! it just make me sick...
When I used to be the loyal front sitter during balik kampung time,
arwah abah will grumbling when there is no raya song on the radio.which at that time I prefer to tune into other channel when raya song is on air.

before I feel glad for not listen to raya song  this time..
I already finish listen to this just now..


Thanks dude make me listen to my first raya song for this season...


Saturday, August 27, 2011

sedeh er ramadhan bakal berakhir

Ya Allah Ramadhan pergi lagi...dan terlalu sedikit aku beramal di bulan ini..
Hujan rintik pagi-pagi hari...

My mind not stop thinking about how dissapointed I've been all this time,
I wish to change.every single day.Merely I'm not doing great.
Forgive me Allah.Forgive for all wrong doing. My family and I did...
guide us to paradise...
Ya Allah Don't Take My Soul Away
Until You Are Happy With Me
آمین
...
Ya Allah Give Me Death
While I Am In Sajdah
آمین

Ya Allah Let The Last Word Of My Life
Be The Kalma Shahadat
آمین

Ya Allah If I Die In Sleep Let
My Heart Beat The Zikr Of Allah
آمین

Ya Allah, The Guider Of The Lost Souls,
Forgive The Entire Ummah
آمین

Ya Allah Forgive My Parents, My Teachers,
My Family And My Friends

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

aku tahu aku kena

walau 2o minutes ak berkurung dalam toilet disable ni..
aku tau aku kena type waktu ni jugak.
aku tak nak myesal sebab tak luah kan benda ni...

aku tak post lagi.medium ape yg seswai nak bagi.aku tak pasti.

aku abaikan bunyi pancutan deras dari kamar kecil sebelah ni..
lebih 4kali pancutan ak dah dengar.
tapi blum habis rasa nak diluah..
aku terus kan lagi..walau dah terdengar ketulan keras pula yg jatuh dlm mangkuk sebelah...jijik
mmg jijik.
sebab tu ini rumah syaitan.

aku sambung lagi.sbb aku tak boleh type kat depan pc.aku dah nangis tadi.mcm ayer paip deras mengalir.
lagi 20 minit tutorial.tak siap keje.takde progress..matilah aku.
tapi aku tak boleh tahan rasa yang ni.dari pagi tadi.aku termenung.tak dapat nk luah kat tempat seswai lg dah.ni je medium er.

tengok cermin.muka aku dah merah..
kata eza klau korea muka merah mesti baru lepas mabuk.ak mabuk ape?
mabuk najis manusia.gilers




mane aku tahu

'klik..klik..klik..klik' type...
tapi,
bukan ak yg type.org sblah aku.ntah brape kali btukar ganti.
ak xpasti.aku dari kul 10am.skang dh nak jam 3pm.

"week6,week7,week8,-collect data in main street newfarm.."
ak pura-pura bpikir idea utk report.
malas!youtube sanum ghafor lebih menarik minat aku.
inventory mgt tutorial jua tiada buah kemajuan yg terhasil.
cost hold...Q,N .formula..erksss ape smua ini...

termenung sambil kusyuk check ipod.

"sorry,is there anyone using this pc?"
asian girl myapa aku tanye benda aku tak pasti.

"no..i don't think so.."  jwb dengan yakin.

ttiba datang sorang lagi asian girl..

"sorry I was using this pc before..."
.
.

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aku pura-pura tak dengar sambil bergaya dgn headphone tanpa playlist lagu keudara.
~
cibabengs

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Assalamualaikum

sempena ujung-ujung ramadhan ni..
smoga aku dan korang insaf.
ttiba rasa nk public kan balik
anyhow...aku malas nak tulis serabut-serabut.
nak put as simple as I could.


For now. cuma mahu mbtulkan kesalahan ejaan terutama in english.

yep,know korang hebat english.so malu la nok ayat aku tungang langang mcm tak pegi skolah.

Realize #emo

when I realize how important you are to me..u already gone...


there will always be someone who make u retype ur text msg and feel regret untill he reply back ur msg