2AM - Sorry I Can't Smile For You - Even If I Die I Can't Send You - (e...

ak tak tau wey knape 2/3 hari ni tpengaruh dgn aura2 korea ni...
mayb sbb jeles ejun dapt g honeymoon kat sna...
atau tfeeling tgk cite cinderella unni....akibat x check time transfer movie dr jeda...
rerupe er x complete cite ni...argghhh~ak dh lyan smpai episod 6...

sbb suke:ak rasa heroin die sgt kewl smbil juling2 ayer sket..ntah hape2 aje ak mrepek....
sbb utama obsession ni akibat lagu yg agak feeling2 gitew....mcm la ak tgh angau...
sbb x angau la bler feeling over cengini...ahcoooit~
kena la tgk kat my soju je jawab er~

kerajinan ak lyan cite korea...memalaskan diri utk keluar berjoli2...
kebaikan er dari segi kewangan ak yg x brape nk kukuh ni..
keburukan er...mlas gler nk amek hanset ak ttingal kat umah jeda...
ni nak mandi pon mlas..ish2...

saiGon city/HO chi minh

Akher er,bjaya gak ak post entri ni...kemalasan/kebengongan mlanda diri semenjak dua menjak ni....
bfore flight ke saigon ni pon something bad just happen to me...and it hard for me to enjoy this holiday..
i try not to carry on this feeling cause i want them to be happy during this trip....
dengan hati yg agak berat...i try to put some smile in every trip but it truly hard...

it already plan since the beginning..no matter where we go...i was looking fwd for this holiday...sbb dah lma sgt kitaorg x g holiday sma2...for me a trip not only a trip..it one of the way nak bonding2 antara satu sma len...
pas sekian lama aku pening2 cr tmpat and arrange smua....so,bjaya gak kitaorg g n pulang ngn slamat....
normally my mom prefer amek agensi sbb takot la pape hal kat sna etc...dan yg penting susah takot susah nk cr mkanan halal....problemo er,agensi smua ltak harga smpai rm800/head....ok fine...sbb cuti skolah kot...tp hapekejadah er nk byar smpai rm800 utk 4 hari?bek guna duet tu soping2....
n mesti la ak x stuju...sbb rm800 tu ak check pakej Hong kong+disneyland pon lbey kurang je harga er...
well,thanks to prebetsapu er blog....http://www.masviona.com/ which i gain a lot of reliable knowledge dat really helpful during our trip there...

a few restoran halal kitaorg g... 

but we do not go to mekong delta....since my mom nk yg trip g floating market....n dr saigon it take a whole day utk g situ....so,kitaorg x de la g sna....kitaorg g jejalan ke china town..which end up buying nothing...mmg kaen murah2...tp2....sangat scary sbb penjual2 kat situ mcm harimau tunggu mangsa...smpai tarik2 sgala...ni mesti kes x rmai yg dtg...yela,unless korang ni mmg nk beli bundle byk2....atau mmg dh biasa ngn tempat ni..kain silk n cotton mmg lawa2...tp,keadaan kat situ agak menakutkn utk kami...

advice:driver kat situ mmg susah nk jumpa paham english...even kitaorg kata liberty 4 pon dorng x pham...xsilap hotel tu agak well known...sbb dorang ada libery 2 and liberty 3 spnjang jln hotel tu...
n even i took advice org suh nek vansun atau mailinh...ada gak yg try nk tipu....sbnar er dkat je ben than market ngn hotel....tp,sbb ibu dah x larat nk jln...we end up taking a cab gak..ada satu masa ni..mlm n hujan....waaa geram tol ngn adik laki aku ni...kitaorg bg duet kat die suh byar teksi....mmg patot ada balance lbey kurang 10,000 VND tp driver tu wat bodo je...n adik ak pon kuar teksi...ak yg mmg nk make sure driver tu pulang kan duet mmg ar tak puas hati...wlau sparuh kaki aku dh kat luar ak still mintak...
mmg bengang sbb driver tu wat2 tak pha,...mmg ar aroun rm2.50....tp,ak x suke la prangai nk menipu org mcm tu...

sbnar er emo tu tbawa2 sbb siang tu kitaorg g massage kat hotel....pakej tu xingat ar brape.....n rupe er bilik ak ngn mak ak asing...yg massage tu pon xreti ckap english sgt...pening aku..yg lg pening~rupe er kena bg tip lg....mane ar ak tau kne bg brape...n ak slamba ulur aroung 10000 VND..die x puas ati...siap demand tulis atas ketas nk 50000 VND...pergh...mmg aku maki je ar dlm hati...dh ar mak ak yg dh settle massage bdan g nek atas...sbb nk byar tip utk refloxology...tkapai2 ar ak nk lyan makcik nenong sorang ni....

aku mmg suke cite bsepah2....kui2...nanti ghajin ak susun blk...hahhaa

why is sooo hard??/knape susah sangat?

at first i nvr meant to write on dis..it not thing..or i mit be condemn since i hv a lack of REAL info
bout the history and so watever...
REALITI~kita hidup dalam situasi yg sLesa santai..no WAR or so watever..
ya rit..we shud be blast for wat we hv today...but does it mean we shudnt Fucking care bout wat happen
to another living life out there..
i always want to help and feel guilty living with more then i shud every single time i watched and heard bout
people involve in war...
WE keep giving a damn excuse..like

why shud we care bout those Palestinian people?we hv enough problem already and watsoever...

do we really have to boycott coca-cola and Starbucks..

dont be so lame ~ bodoh er govt and etc2....

KEBENARAN: kita dari kecik dah disogok hidup aman damai tanpa peperangan........n lack of concern
bout how some people try to survive for another day out there..
i feel bad bout this people and myself..how sometime i forget and failed to help those people..

it impossible rit to make this world free from war??.>>>>cause dat wat some of us think...some of us who dont want to care how others doing as long they are fine and living in luxury life...

if the fact that coke and starbucks didn't contribute anything for this war...tak salah langsung if we try to
stop buying n support those things...

i dont want to blame american..or even Israel people......but i believe some of us can be change to be a better person....ALL religious are heading human to be a better person...all of us want to be happy and
some people did it in  a wrong way...........
Smua manusia buat salah and
WHY CAN'T WE TURN THIS WORLD TO A BETTER PLACE

we keep blame each other..we always thought we right....
hate people who act like they don't care...yg rasa orang berarak2 
sbb boikot Zionis/War tu satu bnda bodoh...atau x bfaedah..
how I hate when they dont stop comment bout the fact this and that...
bout the arab issue so dat why we cant help them..blablablabala~bullshit!!

say it loud to Ghandi then...if he can make change to his country 
by doing nonviolence protest.why cant we?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mohandas_Karamchand_Gandhi
thanks wikipedia...again~

please LORD,all we need is no more war...no more people dying on street.no more people shooting at each other...

again: i ain't good in history/fact..correct me when i'm wrong.
.it just part of my heart hurt thinking on how we
being snobbish and acting so damn good when some people dying bcause we doing NOTHING....
all we care is having fun...laughing at people who try to help them....shame on u people...at least pray for them...
not brag on some stupid issue bout it!!maybe it just the way we don't want to feel guilty...

some lemon juice: akibat tonton hurt locker~jiwa kacau....

Susahnya mencari bahagia wlau terbentang di depan mata

JIKA ak jatuh cinta..cintakanlah aku pd seseorg yg mlabuhkan
Cintanya padaMU,agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaiMu..

Ya Muhaimin,jika ak jatuh hati..izinkanlah ak menyentuh hati seseorang 
yang hatinya tertaut padaMu...agar tidak terjatuh aku dlm jurang cinta 
nafsu

YA Rabbana jika ak jatuh hati,jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling 
daripada Mu

YA RAbbul Izzati  jika aku rindu,rindukanlah ak pada ssorang y mrindui
syahid di jalanMu

Ya Allah,jika aku menikmati cinta kekakishMu,jgn lah kenikmatan itu
melebihi kenikmatan indahnya bmunajat di sepertiga mlm terakhirMu

YA Allah jika ak jatuh hati pd kekasihMU,jgn biarkan ak tertatih 
& terjatuh dlm PerJALANAN panjang menyeru manusia kePadaMU

Ya ALLAH,jika Kau halalkn ak merindui kekasihMU,
jgn biarkan ak mlampaui btas shingga melupakan aku pd cinta hakiki
dan rindu abadi hnya kepadaMU
Amin

thanks untuk  ....http://cintamissha.blogspot.com/ sbb post link utube mutiara hati ni..

\mungkin sbb tu ak blum jumpa chenta...atau blum layak dicintai..../
bSabaR itu PErLu !! sungguh tersembunyi nikmat yg Allah lebey ketahui..siapalah aku nk mpertikai kan
kebijaksanaan AL-Alim~

effect LpAS forum ngn jeda yg ak bg tajuk sndiri "Guys---always took US for granted"

PENANG-epiSoD2

it took me a few week to continue writing on second entri of my penang trip...
back from chow rasta..the one with the huge old book store like i told you before...

                                            souvenier len bler dapat at dat market


we continue going to Queensbay mall.it was my 1st time but truly enjoy being there........
there's nothing to say but it quit huge and a place to leisure on your free time.Cinema/karaoke place/jusco/mNg/Starbucks /roxy/quicksilver etc....

Tempat yg kitaorg bler lari dr kepanasan duniawi..setelah berpeluh dgn hebat kat market td~
hahaaha...what was unique??..let me see...how bout the bubble tea..okeh2..i noe there are some where you can find at the curve or where ever it is....but dis was my 1st time trying this kind of tea...
itupon sbb Amy blanja...i recommend to try the blueberry one...x silap la..hahaha,rasa yg agak menarik...
it was not mine...cause i choose mine according to the recommendation from the menu..

1st hirup my tea...rasa sdap juak...pastu try my fren blueberry one..i feel like mine sgt boring and ordinary..
hahhaa~ ape yang best sgt?
erm maybe sbb after they make the tea...they will wrap it up so u could put in your handbag and drink it while watching the movie..hahaha;bukan salah aku sbb air jual kat pintu masuk wayang sgt mahal and boooooooring~

okeh2...next one yg weirdo kat sini...restoran yg peliks gile sbb berkonsep kan bathroom atau tmpat korang mLuahKan PEncERnaaN....xtau halal/haram/shubhah...go and check it by urself...
ak bukan g makan..i just took a pic infront of it...tp mmg rasa cam nk masuk n lepak2 dlm tu...
hahha~suggest to just buy a can of coke.....kewl gak..this kind of cafe atau tmpat mkan pelik2 ni rasa bler jumpa kat times square je kot..tmpat len mane der org brani nk wat weirdo2 er konsep...

 

ni bukan kedai jual mangkuk tandas wokehhh

kat sini korang akan duduk atas mangkuk tandas..and meja coming from bath tub yg dialas dengan kepingan kaca...kewl huh..

ini mayb replika...atau ur food will be serve in this way...seriOus..

kitaorg sempat gak g rumah kelahiran p.ramlee...agak tersesat atau telepas simpang gak..but it was fascinating and u shud go there..plus it totally free.. 

dan lepas tu kitaorg blk untuk mrelex2 kn diri...n totally having a shower..sgt mmerlukan sbb dh melekit okeh...

pukul 6 pm baru kitaorg menjalankan mission yg sgt penthingssssssss which was NASI KANDAR time..ngehehhee...

okeh..kitaorg almost giving up back then sbb Georgetown smemang er byk one way....bile terlepas simpang we need to turn another time...pelik gler..tgh mlm smlm kitaorg lalu ade jer nmpak...dah siang and semak..tak nmpk pulak...agak sejam la ktorg cr....last2...kitaorg tanye pakcik kat shell and some other citizen...n jauh gak berjalan..sblum mkan bek smayang magrib dlu..yeeeeeeeeeeee~smpai magrib kot x jumpa..padahal pusing tmpat yg sma...n akhir er jumpa gak..mmg sgt terpencil n mmg patot kitaorg x perasan..mcm kena block dgn kedai len kiri kanan gerai tu...ooowh..lupe,sbnar er...sangat teringin makan nasi kandar "Line CLear"...

this is sinful wit all curry all over the rice... 

i saved rm10 stelah bajet makin kurang untuk makan kat sni...and i was quit shocked since the price for me was quit okeh..and ayam yg 1/4 sgt puas hati..x silap RM4.80 if just lauk ayam..and my fren who took some sayur and papadom pon just pay bout RM6...and totally delicious..forget on hakim er ayam yg crispy.. this is much better... 

hungry anyone??..me tooo!!

FYI~ehem2...dorang ada wall of fame of their own...some of famous er muka melekat2 kat dinding gerai tu and surprisingly one of them was Chef Wan...aper?xkenal..google it urself...

okeh ada la bintang2 len yang enkorang suka mcm AWie and Dato' Sheikh muzafar (sory if wrong spelling)...tak tau la klau dorang sndiri gler g wat photo shop ..tu kena tnye dorang sndiri la kn...

and mLam er...uhuuuu~kitaorg smpat singgah batu ferenghi and g psar yg ala2 uptown atau petaling street...byk la brg "branded" yg bler cr..entah~sbb if real branded pon not really i'm gonna buy those...yang palin n sgt menarik is this...sgt kepingin and meyesal siang tadi borong gler2 kat book store tu..sob2..

tu jer yang ak teringin nk beli saat ni..okeh..yang len~best la jejalan kat sni...manyak mat salleh..huh,ape yg best sgt ngn mat salleh..dunno..u tell me...

dpan the ship..tata~gler nk ak mkan kat sni....ngeeeh =P

Teringin Telepon

" SEsuaTu yg kite Nak/mau/teringin slalu er...mesti benda yang susah atau mustahil untuk kite capai...."

contoh>>> yg x kurang Mampu kepinging nk jadi KAya Raya sebab xrasa bhagia selagi duet x melimpah ruah....dah dapat duet..trus lupe diri...

ok fineeeee~dari kate org..bek tuding jari busuk ni kt diri sndiri..

like me;myself...time phone aku elok..xnk jaga...n teringin nk LG lolipop

       pic dr encik google

dah rosak jahanam baru terhegeh2 nk kcewa..gula2 lolipop pn xde.....nyetsss

   pay phone pon jahanam..citzz!

PERSOALAN ER????

kalau pon kite dapat SESUATU tu~ 

possibility untuk kite jaga se'PErfecT' mungkin..

MAMPU KE??  

cth Islamiah sket>>>kite diberi iman dari awal lahir...tapi;susah kan nk jaga~.bnda yg paling valuable..tapi..nampak ke kite??ada ke hari2 kite syukur..trima kaseh kat Maha Pemberi atas nikmat satu ni...

Rupa apekah agaknya Iman tu bile kite kembali kan pada-Nya di akhirat kelak...aduhai~syahdu...

ni bukan ak cite psal  nurul Iman ank pak Rahman yg amek medic kat seberang erks..(+minah tu mmg chun malatop/bbudi bahasa/ayu sopan sgala bgai....jgn brani compare ngn aku)

tipical sgt kan ape yg aku nk ckap..tp,tu la yg aku rasa akhir2 ni...
ak dh penat..tp ade je bnda yg buat hati ak ni tsentap tgh2 mlm mgambang ni...

Phrase ni slalu sgt kite dgr...but the probs is;

 we still not gonna realize it till the day we can't reach it anymore...

" you don't know what you've got. Till it's GONE...."

ak nk sgt mghargai bnda yang dh ada depan mata..tapi~ak cuba pon xbuleh gak....

lagi aku cuba..lagi aku rasa;i mit end up hurting someone i do care...someone i always call as friend....

so,setapak dua tapak tiga tapak..ak try ignore him...tp btul ke cara aku?

cuba klau ak kat tmpat die??

mesti sedeh kan.....mesti ak tgh bguling2 syahdu bagai ,sbb org yg aku suka wat perangai sememeh mcm yg aku wat skang..

n klau aku accept org yg ak dh try suke...tp  ak sdar hakikat er....

wat the heck gonna happen next??

kejam gLe..hari ni mmg hari kejam aku~benci!!!!

extra chessy;
- penat gler nk susun blk brang dlm bilik ni...ttiba mroyan lak...ampun~
                 -Sorry sis,i'm not supposed to yell at u..but i did~i regret it truly! i wish i cud change a monster inside of me...i nvr meant wat i said..
my mind and my act react  in  OppoSite away...

KEMALASAN DIRI MENGHANTUI DIRI

Ak bangun2 pagi ni..erm pagi ker...sambil pikir ape kena bwat..
Stiap hari pon ak camtu..
Last2 ON lappy pick a movie...baru nk start brushin gege kuning dan bfast dijama' wit lunch seprti biasa..
Klau dah bgun lmbt camni...jgn mimpi la ada lg MiLo pemberi energy...

SEsambIL melayan keboringan watchmen ni.....ak tak tau cite ni psal ape....mrepek mraban ...
mayb psal cartoon from marvel's comic dat i barely read...
soooo,it's time to scream out to the world today...

woot wooot day is it today.??
.25th may...5 day to go sblum ft er show...=P
sblum story mory psal date ni...
annoying Lak with dis person..dont give a demmm care bout the msg i receive just now..

Antara reason ak tak publish blog ak sbb how cud u tell it a private diary anymore...it no longer private..
i just wish this cud be the place where i able to hid from reality and dat why i call it "solitudeescape".
for those who know whom i dedicate this anger to..please keep it to urself..
sharus er..ak mlas nk amek port psal minah ni..

She is my roomate..my only roomate...mesti lah..dah ak dua org je dok dlm tu..
so,watever..since beginning mmg ak nak kuar..i already inform her dari awal..die pulak..
"Erm tak taulah zihah....ak xsure nk cari keje kat sini ke tak.."
or entah hape2 la alasan ko kan..lantak la....ak mmg x sbar nk chow...wlau ak maseh xde arah tujuan
yang penting ...MENUTUP BUKU LAMA>>buler??

sblum ni dah pening psal bil ayer+letrik..watever la..dah la ak byar double sbb situasi yg agak bangang..
Lantak ko la..mlas ak nk argue lg...ko yg nk decide sndiri kan..
skang ni ak nk blk S.alam pon dah mlas sbb nk cari timing yg xkan jumpa ko...BULER twice??

Bulan depan nk kuar...6 hari ni baru bagitau nk kuar umah....wat the heck????ko nk settle kan 6 hari?
mane cukup....gler bangang la ko ni...
Masa cari rumah dlu ak gak yang sebok2 cari...tu pon ko involve last minute pas ak dah jumpa rumah mcm yang ko inginkan....demmit!
it took me more then 2 weeks to settle on dat matter u weckoooo...

                                                           cukup2 la menghantui hidup ak buleh??

Sumpah ak paling malas nk blas msg ni..walau sblum ni ak pikir takde orang ke nk msg ak ari ni..

SMs yang pling ak harapkn.. 

Tahniah..anda ada RM1000000 dalam akaun..sila lah joli smpai lemas...

haha..mana mungkin dong...gler ape bank salah kire nk bg duet byk tu....ak dapat msg aki di rantauan pon cukup bek dah..kenapa ntah since die blk latest ni..susah lak nk sms..asik x delivered je..and same with her too..xpham psal ape....erks..camne bisnes nk jln???gMAiL pon mebuat perangai tahiks akhir2 ni..aduhai..dah la both of us use email gmail utk customer contact..patot la hung mcm gler bisnes aku..gler tol...
byak lak request aku...
eceh mentang2 meminjam tepon ibu...kuh2..wlau hanya sementra....

                                                                    achi...bile mau dtg ini india.

tapi bile dh dpt msg ni..ak myumpah seranah x tentu pasal lak.....
mampos la..next month ak mmg xnk bayar atau amek port lg...ko paling padayapa...
ko asik lyan maplei..ni la jadi er...
so sukati ko la..nk jual katel la..apelah....
fuck urself on it!!
Niat ak dari awal mmg nk pindah sorang...so,why dont u just leave me alone?
Slama ni tinggal se rumah pon..ak mcm tak wujud kot...so,lantak ko lah...
i dont want to relay on anyone..especially you....mean;i just dont trust you anymore after wat u did it to me..
what make u think i'll forget those memory from my head...u just wrong...cause i am wat i am...
  '   if i'll ever do it again....i'll do the exact same thing..."
u never change me to be a b8tr person...no u dont!!!
i'm the one who change my perception on friends and human being after wat u done to me long ago..
teringat time die ada krisis ngn the other frens...well,jeda and aki sndiri perasan n tell me

"is it a karma?after wat she did to u bfore?"

it mit be..i duwno...tapi aku bukan die...she mit left and ignore me when 'those' bad thing happen...
tapi ak tak...i'm stick wit her tough she treat me like a shit now..i still act as friend shud do..
not stepping other from back...it isnt me..at all...
i dont have any guts to take revenge on dat....
WATEVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEer..

why shud dis day be the most miserable day of my life..why?
my besfren casper on his way to KLIA..living me here behind..

sure,he back to his hometown for a good...
He going to start working as soon as he be there..

this boredom and clueless future is killing me