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Tuesday, May 25, 2010

KEMALASAN DIRI MENGHANTUI DIRI

Ak bangun2 pagi ni..erm pagi ker...sambil pikir ape kena bwat..
Stiap hari pon ak camtu..
Last2 ON lappy pick a movie...baru nk start brushin gege kuning dan bfast dijama' wit lunch seprti biasa..
Klau dah bgun lmbt camni...jgn mimpi la ada lg MiLo pemberi energy...

SEsambIL melayan keboringan watchmen ni.....ak tak tau cite ni psal ape....mrepek mraban ...
mayb psal cartoon from marvel's comic dat i barely read...
soooo,it's time to scream out to the world today...

woot wooot day is it today.??
.25th may...5 day to go sblum ft er show...=P
sblum story mory psal date ni...
annoying Lak with dis person..dont give a demmm care bout the msg i receive just now..

Antara reason ak tak publish blog ak sbb how cud u tell it a private diary anymore...it no longer private..
i just wish this cud be the place where i able to hid from reality and dat why i call it "solitudeescape".
for those who know whom i dedicate this anger to..please keep it to urself..
sharus er..ak mlas nk amek port psal minah ni..

She is my roomate..my only roomate...mesti lah..dah ak dua org je dok dlm tu..
so,watever..since beginning mmg ak nak kuar..i already inform her dari awal..die pulak..
"Erm tak taulah zihah....ak xsure nk cari keje kat sini ke tak.."
or entah hape2 la alasan ko kan..lantak la....ak mmg x sbar nk chow...wlau ak maseh xde arah tujuan
yang penting ...MENUTUP BUKU LAMA>>buler??

sblum ni dah pening psal bil ayer+letrik..watever la..dah la ak byar double sbb situasi yg agak bangang..
Lantak ko la..mlas ak nk argue lg...ko yg nk decide sndiri kan..
skang ni ak nk blk S.alam pon dah mlas sbb nk cari timing yg xkan jumpa ko...BULER twice??

Bulan depan nk kuar...6 hari ni baru bagitau nk kuar umah....wat the heck????ko nk settle kan 6 hari?
mane cukup....gler bangang la ko ni...
Masa cari rumah dlu ak gak yang sebok2 cari...tu pon ko involve last minute pas ak dah jumpa rumah mcm yang ko inginkan....demmit!
it took me more then 2 weeks to settle on dat matter u weckoooo...
                                                           cukup2 la menghantui hidup ak buleh??

Sumpah ak paling malas nk blas msg ni..walau sblum ni ak pikir takde orang ke nk msg ak ari ni..
SMs yang pling ak harapkn.. 
Tahniah..anda ada RM1000000 dalam akaun..sila lah joli smpai lemas...
haha..mana mungkin dong...gler ape bank salah kire nk bg duet byk tu....ak dapat msg aki di rantauan pon cukup bek dah..kenapa ntah since die blk latest ni..susah lak nk sms..asik x delivered je..and same with her too..xpham psal ape....erks..camne bisnes nk jln???gMAiL pon mebuat perangai tahiks akhir2 ni..aduhai..dah la both of us use email gmail utk customer contact..patot la hung mcm gler bisnes aku..gler tol...
byak lak request aku...
eceh mentang2 meminjam tepon ibu...kuh2..wlau hanya sementra....
                                                                    achi...bile mau dtg ini india.

tapi bile dh dpt msg ni..ak myumpah seranah x tentu pasal lak.....
mampos la..next month ak mmg xnk bayar atau amek port lg...ko paling padayapa...
ko asik lyan maplei..ni la jadi er...
so sukati ko la..nk jual katel la..apelah....
fuck urself on it!!
Niat ak dari awal mmg nk pindah sorang...so,why dont u just leave me alone?
Slama ni tinggal se rumah pon..ak mcm tak wujud kot...so,lantak ko lah...
i dont want to relay on anyone..especially you....mean;i just dont trust you anymore after wat u did it to me..
what make u think i'll forget those memory from my head...u just wrong...cause i am wat i am...
  '   if i'll ever do it again....i'll do the exact same thing..."
u never change me to be a b8tr person...no u dont!!!
i'm the one who change my perception on friends and human being after wat u done to me long ago..
teringat time die ada krisis ngn the other frens...well,jeda and aki sndiri perasan n tell me
"is it a karma?after wat she did to u bfore?"
it mit be..i duwno...tapi aku bukan die...she mit left and ignore me when 'those' bad thing happen...
tapi ak tak...i'm stick wit her tough she treat me like a shit now..i still act as friend shud do..
not stepping other from back...it isnt me..at all...
i dont have any guts to take revenge on dat....
WATEVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEer..

why shud dis day be the most miserable day of my life..why?
my besfren casper on his way to KLIA..living me here behind..

sure,he back to his hometown for a good...
He going to start working as soon as he be there..

this boredom and clueless future is killing me 


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